Jan 10, 2023

Steel Princess (Royal Elite, #2) review

 Book Review: Steel Princess (Royal Elite, #2) 

since i've already finished the 1st one, now im gonna have to finish the rest of the series but to be honest it does take some time for me to finish since this is not really my cup of tea.. there are some cringey shit going on....in par with massimo's are you lost baby girl? cringe....lols...guess im too old for this shit..the writing in general also lack wordplay, no finesse, like reading an unispired teenage wattpad.

Aiden king is also a fucking red flag. so girls...no, u dont want this kind of partner in real life...okay..respect yourself please...



Jul 18, 2022

My Series of Unfortunate Events for 2022

April 2022

As my life evolving, I find myself in the centre of Malaysian Governmental District, Putrajaya. In the bout of Transfer Order frenzy, I am again transferred from KL High Court to Putrajaya. The punch was I was not only transferred within the Judiciary, I was crossed over to the AGC, which is supposed to be for my career advancement and promotion.

This is it, the place where all my peers fears of. I got a few calls of symphathy from those who understands and congratulations for the promotions speech from a few family and friends. That was 3 months ago. 2022 has not been kind to me so far. Athough the Covid situation is now almost over, thank god for that. To start off, I got transferred starting off April 2022, during Ramadhan. 

My first bouquet of flowers for Farewell

With my Former Judge that I served YA Dato' Ahmad Bin Bache

There were a lot of things to be considered when you were transferred out of town. See, I live in KL at present. We bought a house under PPAM which is basically a discount housing roject for government servant. I mean, where else in KL could u buy a 1,500 sq ft house for RM 300k? Although at first we have our concerns and fears over buying this house back in 2018 or is it 2019, I think you could do worse in this economy. It has been 2-3 years since we moved from our rented space in Segambut into this apartment pretending to be a condo house that we bought. 

Then out of a sudden, I have to work like 30 miles away from home, commuting for about an hour to an hour 1/2 to two hours depending on the traffic for one way. Not to mention the gas and toll consumption per month. I was beginning to believe that this promotion means jack. I have been commuting and have been lost in traffic more than I can count, not to mention the nervous jitters of driving in unknown route and missing an exit to highways..It was a nightmare. My sleep schedule also changes. I used to be able to wake up at 7.00 am and can make it on time before 8.00 am. now I have to wake up way before sunrise in order for me to be ready to leave home by 6.20 a.m so that I will be able to leave office by 4.30 am. The chain reaction and aberration from this timeline will cause me much more time in the traffic and I dont want to bore readers (if anyone had came this far in reading this ranting) in doing the calculations. Safe to say it's imperative for me being able to leave early because KL rush hour is murder!!!

Talking about travelling and car maintenance, after 2 weeks of constant travels, my car decided to break down just days before we are schedule back to Kelantan for hari raya. It just slows down on the road just before I exited into MEX Highway to office. I don't know that I have it in me to be so calm in handling the car trouble, swiftly parking the car on the side of the road with my emergency lights on and calling up the insurance for the car to be towed away. Unwillingness to travel by tow car made me called up my Husband to pick me up at the spot and luckily he made it in time with the tow car and it only took a little time. I also have no mood whatsoever to return to work and had applied for emergency leave. In this respect I was lucky enough to have an understanding Superior and co-workers.


My Hubby waiting for the car to be towed

We raced the tow truck to the workshop. They won though.

Next, the issue of taking leave during my probation period. As provided under Pekeliling Perkhidmatan Sumber Manusia, Im not supposed to apply for leave for more than 5 days because of the promotion. In the event my leave is extended for more than 5 days, it will affect my acting allowance.Which brings me to this predicament. As a lot had happened since that fateful April 2022.


May 2022

Since I was transferred during Ramadhan, I have to reschedule every plan I had made for Raya. We (Husband & I) were not even supposed to go home for Raya this year. We had been considering and reconsidering what to do that coming Raya holidays. Until he got a phone call from his Mom and also the workshop had called with the news that my car is ready to be picked up, and in the last minute we decided to go Home to our hometown after all.

I can barely remember what last Raya was like and here's why... It has been orvershadowed with a tragic accident. You see, we were on our way back to KL after raya, sitting in comfortable silence along the drive until suddenly, a motorcyclist cross our path and since my Husband could not avoid it, collided head on with the mortorcycle. It was a traumatic moment when the motorcyclist's head crased on the car's windshield, cracking it inches from my face, before he was thrown onto the curbside. This happened around noon on May 8th, 2022, in the main road in a small town of Kok Lanas, near a moderately big mini market and a roadside eat shop (too little to be called restaurant, too big to be called a stall) where a lot of locals are hanging around.

My Husband parked the car on the side of the road, we got out of the car and saw the motorcyslist body is laying facedown with his face on the road and barely breathing. The locals have since gathered around the scene, I could hear one or two of the older ones getting aggressive saying that my Husband was driving too fast..some of the younger ones came up to console my Husband who have since panicked saying that it was really not his fault.

I vaguely remembered calling my dad telling him about the accident, my husband called his older brother to come help, then I called the insurance for a tow truck since the front bender of the vehicle is in pieces. Then, we wait. I was driven to the police station by an onlooker on the spot and was told by the Police officer at the Kok Lanas Police Station that I have to report the accident to KB police station. The process took a while, as we go back to the accident site, the motorcyclist's body has been taken by the ambulance and transported to local Hospital. Then, we waited for awhile for the tow truck to come and took the car to the insurance panel's workshop. We haul ass to KB Police Station in Kubang Kerian getting ride from my brother in law. My dad stow away my belongings from the car for safekeeping.It was hectic and by the time it's settled, Im back in KB contemplating my next move. Since it have been nearly 5 days of leave from work, I have to ask for emergency leave to settle the police report and investigation and also oversaw the car repairs.

After 3 days, we heard the news that the motorcyclist, aged 75 years old had passed away resulting from the collision. There was so many questions then that had left us worried. I have to get back to KL because I cannot extend the leave any longer. I managed to go to work for a few weeks until we got called back home for further investigation over the accidents. Turned out the result of the investigation is favourable to my husband since my husband have the dashcam recordings of the said accident..(thank god for little mercies).

The Investigating officer in charge had decided to stop the investigation and taking no further action since the accident was caused by the motorcyclist negligently crossing the main road and there is no liability on my husband's part. However, the past 2 weeks have been the most traumatic event in our lives and I'm so glad we have each other to confide in and give support to. Can you imagine the trauma of hitting somebody (whether it's your fault or not) and in consequence, the person had died from it. Also for the unwarranted guilt. I think my husband still suffers from it from time to time and I hope it will not have a long term effect. Its still traumatic for me even as a passenger during the accident. I’m lucky that the shattered glass from the windshield didn’t lodge in my eyes or causing permanent damage elsewhere. In any respect, we were both lucky to have escaped without a scratch. 

We did visit the uncle's widow at their house and my husband keep in contact with the uncle's son. Although it might not bring him back, at least we could make amends and ease their burden even for a bit.

At arwah pakcik's house

June 2022

Suddenly, out of the blue, by the end of June, my dad whatsapped us in the family group, saying that my mom is paralysed and cannot move her feet and arms. She was brought to the hospital and it turns out that her spinal cord was effected after she suffered from a fall in the bathroom. She was given a choice whether to let it be or undergo a spinal cord surgery this September. Our sibling has taken turns to take care of mom and as my dad is not well enough himself to take care of her, we have to take turns. 

Get well soon mom

I guess that's it for now, my series of unfortunate events for 2022. I hope to god that nothing else will happen for the remaining of the year and I'm praying hard for my mom's health and recovery. Although a lot has happened in between, I don't feel the need to write it down, suffice only for us to remember.